Day #58 It's been a rough day

I feel so overwhelmed and stressed. To be very honest I am drained. I feel like a horrible mother and a wife right now. There isn't much logic to my emotions but that is how I feel. I hate having to use a walker and I am so sick of feeling like a burden to the people in my life. I hate that every day I wake up I am constantly reminded of the car accident and the day my life was forever changed because of one persons mistake and disregard for others. All I want is to be a happy new mommy and wife but I can't. I feel like I am living my life on pause and every time I begin to move past the terrible spot someone hits rewind and I am back in the thick of it again. I can't wait to start meds again...I know I really need them right now in order to see a ray of sunshine in this cloud that is covering my life. I really need to be out of this funk before Trey comes home. I need to be the best mommy I can be, he deserves it. I need to be the best wife I can be, Chris deserves it. I try so hard to be the best and I feel like I keep falling short...I keep trying. Maybe I put to much pressure on myself to be perfect. To have the cleanest house, most organized closets, to make straight a's in school. To be the best mother. To be the best wife. I don't know...I just need a break. I need my son to be healthy, my family to be happy and a few days with out any issues or drama. I just need a few peaceful days.