Day #36 Looks like a long night at the NICU

I am sitting here looking at Trey tying to hold back my tears. I got a phone call at 7:30am from the resident doctor telling me that they had decided to start Trey on antibiotics, again. He had a couple of bradies that were difficult to get him out of. The doctors and the nurses have different perspectives on why his bradies are increasing. The nurses feel that it is due to reflux and nothing needs to be done. They feel that it is a prematurity issue and he will grow out of it. The doctors agree but are afraid that he might have a infection they haven't picked up. The problem being that if he has an infection that it can quickly get out of control. So, the doctors would rather treat him for nothing then have a bigger more serious problem later. Then there is my feelings on the issue. I agree with the nurses but I also don't want him to get an infection. I don't think he has an infection at all but I understand the gravity of the situation. I am also fully aware of the side effects from the antibiotics. Hearing loss being one of them. The reason hearing loss seems more serious to me is because it is more difficult to detect then the other potential problems.

Anyways, here I sit watching him with an IV sticking out of the top of his head. Again, I am hoping that the doctors, nurses and I have made the best decision for Trey. He has been though so much. When is he going to catch a break. I guess I have to try to think positive. Who knows, the antibiotics might do the trick and he might come off the O2 soon and then I will be able to start feeding him soon.

IDK, just keep him in your prayers please.